Rock you like a hurricane

It seems like Matt and I have been getting new things left and right- it kind of makes me feel guilty... Matt got a new computer, but he so desperately needed it, and has been needing it for about 3 years now, so nothing makes me happier than to see him on his pretty new macbook pro! Secondly, we bought Guitar Hero 3 for the Wii--- fantastic purchase. I want to buy a new camera. OK so now that I type that out, it really isnt a lot at all, but I am not materialistic by any stretch of one's imagination, so I feel weird. nerd.




In other news, I have been thinking a lot about politics lately. I hate politics. When people start to mention anything related to politics, I cringe because I know that an ugly argument is the only thing to follow. I detest those oh-so-awkward moments. Anyhow, I have been soul searching to really think and consider what I believe in... I think I am a Republicrat. I think that my personality seems to agree with Republicans from the eye of another. But to me, I think I identify with a democrat more. They both have their pros and cons though, just as anyone in this holy place does.

I need to clean my house and sweep away the dust that collects on our surfaces, but I do not value time spent that way! If only I had a day where all I could do was clean my house- I would be a very happy lady. So when I have a minute here, a minute there, one would think that I would spend it wisely and tidy- but I spend it even wiser and do not tidy. thank you television. and thank you, too, textbooks.

I hate that life is occupied right now. Why cant my life be like a Mary Poppin's bag- I want to be able to ram a bunch of crap in it and always have room for more. I dont have tome for my friends, sadly. So are they friends anymore? I dunno- I would say yes, but they might want to punch me! I know everyone gets busy, but I truly miss some of the people who were my closest. Heather is half way through her pregnancy, and I haven't even seen her yet and have only talked to her once. Her darling husband was so happy the first time he mentioned he was going to be a father. He loves her so much- oh it is just so precious, I smile thinking about it. What I would do to live close to people like that again- if only I could surpass the desert. Unfortunately there are no refunds on that.




The weather has been beautiful lately, to say the least. I want to live by the beach so I can run in the sandy sunrise. I love the sun, even though it makes my eyes squint. My skin always turns red when it visits, but that is the price you have to pay. I want to buy a new cute bathing suit, as I am anticipating a beautiful, learn to surf, worthy spring. Does that mean I need a surfboard??

Thoughts are something that run wild. They can make or break a person, but no matter the content, they are, sometimes unfortunately, necessary. I have been thinking a lot lately about a recurring subject in my life. It seems to pop up where ever I am- at work, school, dreams, life plans, goals, desires. etc. Its funny how no matter you shove something in the back of your mind, it doesn't ever stick there. I continue to remind myself that maybe I need to let go of the control I have over my life and just let everything fall into place, but what fun would that be for the half of me that is type a? At the same time, I feel like planning makes me feel responsible and poised, but does anyone else see that if I never share my thoughts? I am keeping them hidden here, in my blog, a place for thoughts!! I wish that technology would come to be so advanced that I could think, and then somehow, the information would be presented perfectly on a crisp paper in a beautifully bound book. Oh how I love technology.

So in the part of my life that I CAN express, I am so overwhelmed with the measly 13 units I am taking. This is the least amount of school I have done, but I just feel so tired and up to my knees all the time. I hate opening at work, but can you really complain when you want life to go beautifully? Maybe opening is making me a less selfish person (of which I am not already- selfish that is) so that I can uncontrollably pour out my love and time on my family, which is ultimately how I would choose for life to go. I have noticed, lately, that I care about myself, but just enough to ensure that I am growing how I would like to and that I am healthy. Otherwise, I delight in serving others. I would rather do about 13,000 things for someone else before doing something for myself. I think it makes the world a happier place, so I do what I can for a greater common good. I often think that this attitude is not commonly reciprocated, but then again I am not doing anything for recognition. I do not need a cheap pat on the back. I think, though, that this has just always been a way of life for me. It is funny to recollect on the past ;)

I have been listening to a lot of pretty music lately- I need to become a wonderful musician in my spare time. Crazy that something like that can be so capturing. It makes me think, mostly about people. How I have good friends, how I miss a bunch of them. How much I adore my Husband and the company he provides me. How much children make me smile. How much I miss Shea who has relocated to Germany... I like people.